Mid-term Updates

I know I promised telling you about my "new life" once I'm stable, so here goes.

I'm now working as a a full-time research associate in our Institute, yay! I'm a part-time graduate student. Anyway, the research is about Salmonella but we're not starting it yet for some reasons so I'm working on some protozoa for the meantime. Also, I have to think of a thesis topic related to the project so I can work on it while doing the project. I'll think about it on the weekend.

I also moved into a new house, with some old friends. Moving in was, um, okay. Staying is a little difficult, for some reasons I do not wish to disclose here.

I also started reading "A Song of Ice and Fire"! I found a nice quote right here from "A Storm of Swords":

“Sometimes,” Catelyn said slowly, “the best thing you can do is nothing. When I first came to Winterfell, I was hurt whenever Ned went to the godswood to sit beneath his heart tree. Part of his soul was in that tree, I knew, a part I would never share. Yet without that part, I soon realized, he would not have been Ned. Jeyne, child, you have wed the north, as I did … and in the north, the winters will come.” She tried to smile. “Be patient. Be understanding. He loves you and he needs you, and he will come back to you soon enough. This very night, perhaps. Be there when he does. That is all I can tell you.”

The thing is, he isn't Ned. And I'm not Catelyn. We're not married. And we are not in the beautiful world of Westeros. There are a lot of things going on in my mind about this - moving forward, dragging back, selfishness, selflessness, understanding, patience, hope, future. But I try to keep my mind occupied with more important things like graduate school, work, family and business, and travel. I don't want to waste my time thinking about stupid feelings that only I can feel, or thoughts that only I think of. The best part is I'm starting to care less - which is what I've been trying to do for so long to keep peace.

This post is unworthy, I know and I apologize. I'll try to write you a story some other time, if I get my heart broken again. This heart just won't break lately so nothing's become an inspiration. Oh wait, I have this story...about a man in white. I can't remember whether he was a knight, or just a warrior, or an angel or something. But I will write about him. Soon.

Just Me

Banyuhay means bagong anyo ng buhay, in English, "metamorphosis."

I have long been wanting to create a new blog and start anew. I have been writing on my previous blog since 2006, and it's like an old notebook with its crumpled pages filled with doodles and notes. A new blog is like having a new notebook. A fresh one, with clean, white pages ready to receive doodles and notes.

Why Banyuhay? Like I said, a new form of life. I can not deny that I have not been transformed since that evening on 2006 I decided to create my previous blog. A lot of things happened, some happy and some, well, unfortunate. That old notebook is getting too annoying; it tries to eat me whenever I flip through its pages. Most of the time, I manage to escape its sharp teeth.

This new notebook will remind me of a new form of life everyday I open it. Transformations do not need to happen once in a lifetime. It can happen everyday. That's the best part, because you will be reminded that each day is a new chance to change.

I'm Alyzza. Third year BS Biology in the University of the Philippines, Diliman. I would love to be a scientist someday and help improve the status of research in the Philippines, but I'd rather be a medical doctor and cure people. I think both are equally helpful, but being a doctor is my childhood dream.

I love to dream and watch the night sky, but I haven't seen a shooting star before. I appreciate almost all kinds of music. I can play the piano, but I'd rather sing. I enjoy reading books and I enjoy writing as well. I like taking long walks, but I seldom walk our dog. I like watching movies, especially if I have popcorn around. I was once infatuated with Mr. Darcy, but I'd rather have someone who enjoys music as much as I do. One who plays an instrument, he doesn't need to be in a band. He does need to learn living with just a few people, those who are closest to our hearts. I'm not really comfortable with crowds, especially those who were trying to eat me in my old notebook. I would love to travel someday - China, Japan, Korea, Egypt, France, Italy, you name it. I get lost easily; I'm bad with directions. But I remember faces and places and small details like the name of someone's pet or the face of that stranger I met last night. I love ice cream, chocolates, cookies, pizza, and vodka, but hot chocolate would be just as good.

I guess that's all you need to know. Happy holidays!